LOST

I REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY NEED A LISTENER RIGHT NOW
can someone please tell me a reason not to give up?
cause my old reason are making me lost, uncertain & sad
My strength of continuing is fading =( 

VISION OF LIFE

VISION OF LIFE
Just attend 1 of our church program named 'Discover My Church'
Did learn a lot, 1 of the topic from the classes that inspires me is the topic of 'our vision in life'
Come to think of it, last week  my supervisor asked us a question
'What you see yourself in 5 years??'

Never thought of this question before that, almost immediately I got my answer
I wanna be a biological technician that do contribute to the world
& of course at the same time a Bboy that inspires others through my style of breaking
Sounds difficult but hey nothing great comes without difficulties
Two field of profession that people never thought it will come together
Most people chose either 1 of it, but for me, I believe that I can be 1 of the few people that can be both of it
Many people judge a person by appearance, I was once 1 of those people too
This is why I always make myself look as gangster as possible..haha
I wanna show the world that not all Bboy are those who cant study
& not all scientist are those who only stuck in lab & nerd who are just good in study !
'You Stay, You Build'
I wont give up in my dream, no matter what others says, I know who I am & where I wanna go
人因梦想而伟大
This will be the quote of my life ! XD

*I don't care how long it takes, I will wait for you, cause I am serious bout it =)*

THIS SYMBOL

=.=
I dislike & somehow scare of this symbol
Dislike because is like the person don't feel like talking to you or the thing you said makes them go =.=
Ok..maybe I said the wrong thing my bad
Scare is because when the person just mean something to you, & they give you this
Makes me feel veryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy awwwwwwwwwwful =(
Maybe I think too much I guess >.<

*I'm not good at expressing myself verbally, but if you give me a chance to show you, trust me I'm not that dull*

RANDOM

*There is so much inside there*

*Not emo-ing bout this but then, I guessed everyone experienced this before?? lol *

MY OWN STORY

*I never expect much, just wish that there's always small coincidence where I can talk to you once in a while =) *

JUST GOT CARRIED AWAY

Today is the first day of the bboy class, was pretty excited about how's the old student progress & some new faces
But then, it ends up with only 4 people =.=
Are the people scared bout learning all those moves in bboyin or time clashes or our teaching got problem >.<
Very excited bout sharing knowledge of bboyin & eager to see somebody who shares the same passion !
But then that just not the case @.@
And because of that, today was a mess in my opinion, 3 person teach by 3 separate instructor
Seriously if Im the student I also will doubt the instructor
Was trying to make all the 4 people to listen to me but it end up they being distracted, even my mind is not in teaching anymore =.=
Show my anger abit verbally towards some people but then I don't mean it, hope they understand
Just got carried away by emotion
Because I respect the dance so much & appreciate everything coming from the dance
So...if  I see somebody disrespecting the dance or just fooling around and not serious bout it
Anger may starts taking over me & I'll starts speaking out words that I didn't mean to
It wont happened again, I'll try my best to control definitely !

*I've changed...both good and bad way, that just happened*

THE FEELING !

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO !!!!!!!!!!!

Just had a most tiring yet full-filling week of my life !

Last week was a blast, had my 1st experience in performing a soft song (which I'm not that satisfied with it actually >.< )

But then it was wonderful overall ~~

Especially yesterday, did a full bboy show with the brothers of UCSI

We had 5days to prepare for the whole thing but in the end it turns out well

At least I think so, I was so energetic the whole day..HAHAHAHA

Had fun cheering for Red Legion as well, & they got 3rd place !
GRATZ TO THEM !

But then because of the whole dancing week, I did nothing related to study

Skip class, didn't do assignment, didn't study for the coming quiz..wait die la me ! LOL

Luckily I have some great buddies that finish most part of the assignment & just left some easy thing for me 2 do XD

However, am still excited bout tomorrow, wish it will be HYPE to the MAX !!! XD

The feeling you get when you accomplished something that you always wanted

IS JUST AWESOME !!!

*Kadangkala I still care =)*

MY DREAM

Not everyone have a dream, even those who have cant guarantee to reach their dream

I am fortunate enough to found my dream & my passion

Am lucky enough to met someone who told me how important our dream are

Some of my friend ask me why do i go practice, iziit for competition??

NOPE ! is for me, i love to dance, that's why i dance

It is how i express myself, i m not good at expressing verbally, God lead me to bboying

Where i could fully be me, fully shows my feelings through movement

Every beats brings you to a certain movement, now slowly but surely i understand what does this means

There was times where i was lost in many ways, & i went to the dance studio, even by watching others dance

THAT MAKES ME FEEL BETTER

                Never knew dance can be so powerful, i know no matter what bboying will always be there for me

   Although i am not that good in it at the moment, but i wont give up

It is not a hobby, not an exercise, it is part of my life & it always will be

KEEP ON DANCING ! BBOYZ ROCKS !

*WHY DO ALL THE GIRLS LIKE THOSE GUITAR, PIANO, & SINGING GUYS SO MUCH*
*SPREAD SOME LOVE TO THE DANCERS OK..HAHAHAHA*

A LETTER TO ME, MYSELF AND I

Dear Ho Kuan Fai,

I know is weird to do this but then who cares, Im going to do it anyway XD.
I know you been bother with complicated things nowadays but don't ever lose yourself in it
I know is hard to do it but must try man! Seriously, you don't hope the same thing happen again right
So please change, try your best in everything you do, & I mean EVERYTHING !
Don't over-think things, sometimes is better you act first rather than think first
Be confident in yourself and your own ability
Cumon man, you are a BBOY
YOU ARE BORN 2 BATTLE & FACE CHALLENGES
Even if you lost, be proud of yourself, at least you tried
TRY YOUR BEST, GOD WILL GIVE YOU YOUR ANSWER~
Accepts what it is at the end, you sure will learn something from it
Treat people around you better, friends, family, everybody
I know you are not good at socializing with other people but you must change this thoughts
The reason you been bother with that because you are not good at talking with others
Especially those who mean something to you
Try talk to other people you are not familiar with, DON'T BE LAZY LAAAAAAAA
Never try never know, if you want it that bad, go for it ! Don't regret after that and thinking bout 'what if' =.=
Good things don't come itself, please get your guts on and GOOOOOOO!

*TO GET SOMETHING YOU NEVER HAD, YOU HAVE TO DO SOMETHING YOU NEVER DID*
(Take a deep breath and 冲罢了! )

I Wish I Knew You Better

Duh...did told myself don't sendiri cari pasal go & view at it but yet again after a long while..I did >.<
Was just hoping for something but then expectation bring disappointment AGAIN !
If only I could read your mind just for 1 day..then I would know what should I do
& end this misery once and for all !!!
But at least I handle it way better than last time
I don't get it..am I thinking too much or really I do have a chance
But stepping in & out of it is making me more & more confused in many ways @.@
Some friends did told me, give all you got for it but...
Honestly I don't dare to do so because I don't wan't to get hurt anymore
I know, BRAVERY is important in this case but I guess my guts still need time to grow
Maybe I don't even have that much of time *sigh*
Anyway..I did tried this time, although I know I'm not giving the best I got
But this time at least I did tried~
The *Fire* still not there yet, but I can wait
But before that will continue to endure this uncertain feeling like a man !

FIRST TRUE BBOY COMPETITION TOMORROW !
PREPARE TO SMOKE SOME NOOB & GET SMOKED BY SOME PRO ! XD

Mind is not there @.@

My mind is just not concentrating these days @.@

In lab, in class, even sometimes in dancing!

With all the quiz, assignment, report,dance competition & practices ahead, my mind still in else where...

I know where's the problem but i just couldn't find the solution laaaaaa

I do need some advice right now, but just don't know who to talk to...

At least i know i shouldn't be bother by those things at the moment but......

The truth is my mind wont listen !!!

Urghhh..just need to vent awhile

I don't know when will the moment feel just right or it may never work out after all
 God..I need YOUR help =(